Dear god th only thing i ask of you is to hold him when i'm not ard. Soon.

Hi dearests , i'm feeling so low now. I didnt know things could change so fast and finally i understand , wad goes ard, come ard. Talk is cheap , no wonder i bought them all to my heart , and ended up hurting.
I've so many why(s) to ask in my mind right now. Everything seem to be more interesting than me , i guess you're tired of me alr. Well i'm fine with tt. Trainings from morning to night everyday. I meant like are you kidding me?! Morning TO night , fugging human robots ? No breaks? -.- . Not even a day off?
Though it's been jus a month and things started to change , and tt's so fast, i couldnt accept th fact tt you're nolonger someone tt i used to know. Or i'm jus too sensitive ? Well idk. And it has been quite a long time since i met you. Maybe it's distance tearing us apart or maybe it's jus sth within our hearts. I guess i gave th best of my heart uncritically to someone who could hardly care. (w)

But " if you wanna see rainbow , you've to go through pain.
And if you wanna see true love , you've to overcome all th pain. "

Tt sounds so true , but is it true ? Iguessso.

I had so much to rant abt , i think i'm gg crazy man for god sake. Screw ittttttt , I cant control myself but to be so impatient,and i starts to ffuck you with my attitudes. i'm sorry i really cant control , i always wanted to calm down and not giv any attitude and be contented with my life but screw my fugging attitude. I so gonna change it , though it jus talks. Really. CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL !

Thanks to Lt , Cynthia, Kendra and Benedict , i'm cheered up a little. (:

So tired of pretending happy with you, i'm angry and disappointed or wadever feeling you named laaaaaaa. -.-. Ha.

P/S: Celina's needs a chillpill.